11.27.2010

patience

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basic t-shirt - zara, vest - gowigasa, shorts - GAP kids, belt - unbranded, heart printed stockings - miss selfridge, wedges - retail therapy, bracelet - from vdcouture

I'm confused wheter I write this or not. it's been along time I keep this feeling alone in my mind only.
do you ever feel being too forced by someone? Someone that you really love? We're not talking about boyfriend /girlfriend now.
I often feel that my mom forces me to study too much and it makes me stressed out like crazy and after that I often cry. it's like my mom never satisfies with what I do for her. I study hard when there's test and I always try my best to get the best score to make my mom happy. But my mom often gets angry to me. even if I get 70/80 in my tests. I really hate it. I ever shared this problem to my bk teacher but it doesn't change a thing. I love my mom very much and I want to make her proud. but she never knows that I feel like 'a girl under pressure'. I want her to not angry too often to me just because I can't get 100. and I don't want she forces me to study everynight too. I have my own 'study method'. :(.
and then I start to think if better I moved to other city and live separated with my parents so that I wouldn't hear her shouts at me everyday. that's good for her and me. even though I know if I'll feel 'homesick', I will regret all, I will miss her, etc. every human has their own 'patience line', mom :(

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ok. just stop the sadness and let's think another things. I feel better after I shared my problem to my friends and they made me happy at school. I'm very thankful of it ..
sorry for the lack of update and late at replying your comments. will face the final exam next week, wish me luck!! :D

11.13.2010

bunny on bunny :p

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Finally I can blog a new outfit post again. it's been a longgg time!
the weather these days were so bad. raining everyday and it made me couldn't take any photo outdoor :/
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sooo. what i've been busy lately :
- making a short film for student film festival!
we're still in the shooting process, my friend Leticia is the main role of the film. She's really good at acting. Love the way she acted so much. I guess I can't act like her because when I started to say the dialogue, I would easily laugh, laugh, and laugh -_-"
and today we went to a hut. we used the hut as one of the setting . a super dirty and small house made of bamboo matting. I still couldn't believe my friend could find that house :P. The way to the hut was soo tarnish , there were lots of chickens and its pups =="
- I'm very grateful to face the fact that I live in such a pretty and cozy house! :)
                                                               Our Team - The Piusthography :p

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when I went to the hut suddenly I remembered those victims of the eruption of mount merapi too :(
they lived in a refuge, less of food, clothes, etc.
some people lost their family members... and I cried when I read the news on television :'(
then I told my parents if I want to donate money and my clothes to them...
I prayed to God to bless them all and stop this disaster.. :(
one of my blog buddies is a volunteer of mount merapi, visit her blog and twitter to get the information to donate some money/daily needs. :)

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cardigan - zara, white basic tank - giordano, floral shorts - unbranded, wedges - michelle c.la, necklace & ring - khaloong shop
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I got this superrr cute necklace and ring from khaloong shop ± 2 weeks ago.
thank you so muchh! :)

I'm really sorry for the late reply of your sweet comments on my blog.
replying it now. thank you so much for reading my blog, and the super sweet comments you gave to me.  :')