Who You Are?

This was the outfit I wore when I went to the haunted house. Honestly I didn't wear the wedges as shown above, I replaced it with flat shoes because I knew if I'd run inside the haunted house, and I must wear flat shoes or else I would fall and trapped inside -_-. Okay I won't talk about haunted house anymore because until now I still remember the ghost's voice.. The ghost followed me and said "the girl in the back (it was me because my friends who said they'd accompany me left me).. come here... look at meee!!!" with a very very scary tone so that I screameedddd like crazy, cried, and raaaaannn awayyyy T.T

I wore an unbranded crochet top with topshop sleeveless shirt as inner. My jeans are from GAP Kids, wedges from june+julia, bag & sunglasses from gowigasa.

I can't believe it's almost the end of January, time flies faster and faster. I'll have national examination to continue my study to grade 10-12 on April, and lots of try outs and other exams on February and March. I know I'll be busy and probably I can't blog too much and that makes me sad. But however as a student I must choose school over blogging. My job is a student, not a blogger. Blogging is just my 'playing' world. Where I share my hobby with other people. I enjoy blogging in my leisure time only, even though sometimes I feel weird and 'something strange' when I can't make a new blog post, I must let go that feeling because school is waay more important although I also know that blogging is so much funner than studying :p. In my opinion blogging is also 'studying'. After blogging for almost 3 years, I feel my English skill is improved, my style is improved, and after reading a lot of good articles and stories in this blogging world, I get new knowledge which I never learned at school. 

Sometimes I feel school is really boring and most of schools in Indonesia have more than 10 different subjects to learn. At school I only enjoy mathematics, science, and language lessons (chinese / english). The other subjects are boring.. make me always wanna sleep in every lesson -__-. I don't really like history / sociology because I'm a lazy student, I rarely study, so I don't like to memorize :p.

But there are times when I lovee history so much especially about european countries' history . I loveee history movies! But about my country's history... I'm not too interested because I've learned much about that since elementary school, and I don't know why, I'm just not interested with my country's history. *ok maybe after I typed this people will think I'm not a good citizen*. Now I'm not really proud with my country because everytime I watch tv, 95% of the news are bad news , only 5% are news about my country's achievements or something special else. I don't really care with it anyway. 

My mom always asks me why I am so lazy to study, why I looked like I don't have spirit to reach the top, bla bla blaaah... I'm tired being the 'top' and my current motto is Bill Gates' quote : "I never topped in the university, but today toppers of best universities are my employees". In my opinion, the smartest people at school don't always be the most successful in the future. Success isn't all about smart brain. There are many other factors like luck, your personality, and many other factors which I can't mention it now. You know, mostly at school there must be a nerd, who is the smartest student, but he / she can't get along with people well, and sometimes they're just... weird.. I know they have super brains, super high IQ scores, super ideas, etc... but yeah... In my life's experience, I once met a person who I knew her 'past'. She wasn't a smart student at school, but now she's successful and even more successful than her friend who was smarter than her. I know we don't know how our future will be. Diligence is needed, but forcing isn't needed. I believe a diligent person can beat smart person. 

And also, I just don't want to force myself to study too hard. It only makes me more stressful. As long as I pass the subjects with my own 'standard', I'm happy. I'm already happy when I reach good score but I'm not the highest, although sometimes there are some envy feelings, but school isn't only about score right? The point is.. I don't want to spend my school life by studying too hard only to compete with other smartass at school, running to get the highest score. Trying hard is okay but it's not when it's too hard till you feel pressured I take my life easy, enjoy every minute of it by doing things I enjoy. I wanna have a happy, memorable and fun school life . I just don't wanna have a stressful life because of scores. hahaha. Just be your self and do what you enjoy, don't ever force your self doing something you don't enjoy because I know you're not happy. I'm a smart student but not the smartest. I was the leader of the school committee at school although I wasn't the smartest student at school, my brother was also the leader of school committee when he was in senior high school although he wasn't the smartest and he's even a social student, not from science class. hahaha . *please don't call me snob T.T*

This is just my current opinion, it's free to you to agree or not with my opinion, and as a teenager, my words might be wrong, and I might change my mind too in the future. I wanna write more, but time is  chasing me. It's 9pm already in my place so I must do my homework and prepare my books for tomorrow's lessons at school. See you later!

Jessie J - Who You Are